Tonight marked the second night in a row that my babies let me rock them, both of them, together, at the same time, until they fell soundly asleep in my arms. It is rare that they let me hold them both at the same time and I can’t tell you the last time either one of them fell asleep in my arms but the past two nights have been different. As I felt the weight of their little bodies sink deeper into mine and listened to the heavy breathing from Nolan and the suckling sound from Benny’s thumbsucking I was shocked. “Are they both really asleep?!?” And then I said a prayer. A prayer from me, not the typical “now I lay me down to sleep” prayer for their sake but a prayer of thanks, because I am so very blessed. And then I rocked and rocked until their bodies slouched to the point where their foreheads were touching. I couldn’t help but wonder if this is how they also slept just 2 short years ago, just a few weeks before their birth. My babies are growing up in so many ways, but constantly remind me that they are still babies, and for that I am thankful.
I would be lying if I didn’t ache to yell for Ken to grab the camera, if I didn’t wish I had my phone so that I might text my neighbor to come over with her camera and capture this rare moment for me. But instead I tried very hard to think, not of the actual photograph I wished I could take, but to remember the image in my mind … to capture it all, their smell, their breathing, their weight and the feeling of such gratefulness.
After they were tucked away in their beds, I still had the itch to capture a photo from tonight (I just can’t help it!) And wouldn’t you know it, I didn’t have to go far before I was presented with yet another reminder to slow down, take it all in and enjoy the beautiful moments in life.
Enjoy the little things and have a wonderful evening.